Our hands press together like pieces of paper, but they’re always blank when I hold your hand.
So, I feel a bit like a minor celebrity today…
Basically, if any of my readers are from the UK, go on Google, and search ‘The Cut’, its a BBC series and it should be the first link, so open that website and click ‘Blog’, then scroll down and find the blog that says ‘No episodes for a week’ or something like that, and then watch the video which is attached to it. Second mention of a person is ‘theycallmejack’ AKA my screenname AKA me. I was so excited! Its not even someone who happens to have the same screenname as me, that is LITERALLY me. Exciting times!
Also, I picked up the latest edition of the college magazine, and guess who is in it? Me. That’s who. So if you’re an avid collector of college magazines/paedophile, check me out… in fact, if you’re the latter, scratch that and just hand yourself into a police station you sick freak. 😐
So, in other news I’ve been thinking about the way I sometimes rush into things without thinking about them… I mean, its something we all do, right? But I mean, just for example, I have lots of friends, who are my friends, but my friendship with them is based on when we first met, and what I’ve learned about them through being their friend, rather than what I’ve learned about them by actively trying to find out. Which in itself is no problem, because it means that all my friends are my friends because of feelings of friendship, and yet beneath it all, the friendship is only based on emotion, and there’s not enough substance to it… so I’m gonna start asking my friends the things that I always overlooked! Just because I feel if they’re friends worth having, then its worth knowing a little more about them, right?
And you know what I’m doing don’t you? Saying something by telling you a meaningless story which has little to do with what I want to say.
I do this too much. I spend my whole life using symbolism, and metaphors, and ulterior motivations to say things that I just don’t have to courage to actually say. I mean, the colours of my clothes match my mood. When I’m sad, I wear black or dark blue, when I’m happy I wear bright colours. There’s so much stuff I wish I could say, but I don’t want you to judge me.
Honestly, most of my recent blogs have been aimed at particular people, and they’ve only really said one thing, but because I’m not strong enough to just come out and say it… I don’t know who I’d be if I ever just said the things that are on my mind… Hmmm… complicated.
Complicated is a good word. I like the word complicated. It means I can’t describe something, or I can’t be bothered, or I don’t want to think about it. When people ask me what I think about love, I just say complicated, and move on.
Life. Its just one of those funny little isn’t it?
Jack out.